I thought so

I thought I left this place behind me when I went to Japan.
But I decided it the new place is not the right place to voice my frustrations.
And once again, I return.

So much has happened. Not that I did not see it coming. But I wanted to believe it was not true. Murphy`s Law perhaps?
So many things happened, be it from me or from those around me. So much so, I have lost faith, respect, hope and love.

I want to voice my saddness, anger, pain...
I want to find somewhere I can just lie down and let my mind quieten down.
But I have lost the what little trust I have left. Turning the pain, tears and all into solitude. I am drifting further away from people.

I become so numbed. Sometimes I wonder is it better to be the loser who just runs away. I really dont`t want to be here anymore.

What do you want me to do? Tell me WHAT!
I really thought I have harderned my heart and mind. But this have brought it to a new level; perhaps I am as good as dead.......



It is all a facade.
Who am I?

I am who I want you to think I am...

Foresee the end is near

that is that

It is probably too tough

It probably is

The final goodbye

Will be off to Japan for a few years for work. I guess it is time to start anew. Will try to update my life from here

Mean time....take care everyone


Goodbye

Don't understand

Why is it women's head so messed up?

say A, do B;
say don't do C and then they happily do C themselves.


Clueless

Those famous last words...

I sms a few of my friends just to let them know my confirmed flight date in case they did not notice my nick on msn.

"....If I was an ass, I apologise...."

Let us look at the replies I have from the highest amout to the least (Paraphrased):

1. You ok? Drunk ah? Why you say until so sad.
2. You are an ass, that is why you are my friend
3. Yeah I know you are an ass
4. No lah, u are not an ass lah.
5. When are we meeting up?
6. I cannot decide if you are an ass

It is pretty safe to say...I am an ass

Latest Acquisition

Along with expenditures and others...boy have I blew my bank account

3 Little Princesses

In order of age....

1. Anastasia
2. Danesia
3. Alysia

Above are the 3 precious babies in my life

I WANT

I want this jacket in Black!!!!